This Crush

I dont believe in love at first sight 

No way can someone fall so fast 

And yet i know I got something right 

Because my heart is beating fast 

There's a tingling sensation moving from my head to my feet 

My breath comes to a full stop 

Damn, what is this heat 

And these butterflies flying nonstop 

In my direction you throw a warm gaze

My lips can't help but smile

I got both respect and praise 

And hell I'm ready to stay for a while 

Words aren't enough to explain what I feel 

But I'll show you if you let me 

Close enough for your lips to steal

I'll make it worth your time , you'll see

You're just so beautiful can't you see? 

"I like you" is what I'll continue to say 

Because I'm sorry I can't just let you be 

Not when I know this crush isn't going away 

Silence

I'm laying here in the loud silence

Sinking into a deadly realization

My everyday appearance to the audience

Fake and just for general accommodation

When was the last time I felt something real

The last time I genuinely held a smile

Because happiness was a feel

And not just a play of child

Living in the moment, pushing life's despairs

Holding my head high with each coming day

But my heart sinks with burden and tears

And it becomes unclear the message I'm trying to convey

The need to distract myself here and there

Trying not to dwell in the river of sorrow

Because then I become so aware

Of the pain that I push for another tomorrow