This Crush

I dont believe in love at first sight 

No way can someone fall so fast 

And yet i know I got something right 

Because my heart is beating fast 

There's a tingling sensation moving from my head to my feet 

My breath comes to a full stop 

Damn, what is this heat 

And these butterflies flying nonstop 

In my direction you throw a warm gaze

My lips can't help but smile

I got both respect and praise 

And hell I'm ready to stay for a while 

Words aren't enough to explain what I feel 

But I'll show you if you let me 

Close enough for your lips to steal

I'll make it worth your time , you'll see

You're just so beautiful can't you see? 

"I like you" is what I'll continue to say 

Because I'm sorry I can't just let you be 

Not when I know this crush isn't going away 

Silence

I'm laying here in the loud silence

Sinking into a deadly realization

My everyday appearance to the audience

Fake and just for general accommodation

When was the last time I felt something real

The last time I genuinely held a smile

Because happiness was a feel

And not just a play of child

Living in the moment, pushing life's despairs

Holding my head high with each coming day

But my heart sinks with burden and tears

And it becomes unclear the message I'm trying to convey

The need to distract myself here and there

Trying not to dwell in the river of sorrow

Because then I become so aware

Of the pain that I push for another tomorrow

Not so one time

They look at me so enticing

Devouring me through their eyes 

Licking their lips anticipating the icing 

That will come attached to their prize 

I start to melt inside

My body going into overdrive 

It insists that I go along for the ride 

And allow myself, for a moment, to feel alive

I give in , amd now I'm following your lead 

Trying to not use that which lays in my chest 

Trying to silence the voices in my head 

Allow my hormones to take care of the rest 

Your mouth falls on mine 

Bodies crash like the ocean

Every part of your skin so divine

The rhythm moving me in motion

I'm feeling the electricity with every touch 

The passion burning in your fingers

The sheets so tight in my clutch

And your breath on my neck lingers 

You say not to catch a feeling 

That i shouldnt get attached

Because it's not appealing 

And "us" would be mismatched 

This is just a one time thing 

No emotions included 

No rope and no string

My heart and thoughts secluded 

Except that my heart is yelling 

It wants to take center stage 

It's voice so compelling 

Allow me out of this cage 

Your eyes hold me still

Your arms pinning my body

And from there it's all downhill 

I forget I'm just another body 

Adrenaline rushing through me 

And it's not just the liquid flow

My heart breaks out free 

Something more starts to grow 

Your touch has fallen deeper than skin

I get home and have no doubt 

My emotions pulled from within 

Fuck the feelings are out